I can’t

 

Can I just not live?

Fake smiles, fake laughs

Pretending that I’m okay

When I am definitely not

Cause I’m wrecked

I’m confused

I’m incomplete

Still I force myself

To talk

To socialize

To pretend

But I am tired

Exhausted

and numb

Can I just not live?

I’m depressed

But I don’t want them to know

Cause I am a living possibility

So in this cold weather

My cold heart

Endures the warmth

The only warmth that I feel

Of my tears

And I don’t know

When will I be okay

So I’m just wishing

If I could just not live for a moment

And be back

Once I’m ready to live

Again.